6mths

Its been 6 mths since u are gone but i can still Feel u around me. I miss u my beloved one. * Al-Fatihah*

I miss u my MJ

18.12.09

The new chapter of my life has begun starts on that date, Awal Muaharram , Stone Cold steve austin's birthday and also my Nikah.. solemnization day , where i become and finally a wife to my beloved fiance for 5 yrs being together, finally we are one. Alhamdulillah he did it well one kick saja yo hehehe proud of him . I thought he was so nervous but by the looked of his face i knew that he is ready and confident.

As for me I was not that nervous its just that I'm too exhausted sitting down and waited the takliq to end. I was happy he was happy we both are glad that everything went well.Funny thing is i had a hard time putting the ring on him finger karas hantap antah tulangnya atu aha but ok plg masuk jua lehnya hehehe i love u too syg..

Finally husband and wife

17.12.09

This is meMe in Blue
The ceremony starts , berbedak Siang @ morning was at work till kul 12 then balik kraja tarus mandi and getting ready for the event. I was terribly exhausted but the show must go on. And my tukang makeup is Andre nad he made it very nice. Alhamdulilah the event went well and smoothly walaupun ada some errors but yeah @ least it went well.

Here are some pics from the event.

Me and My Aunt Loma from Kuching

Me & My Aunt Che's Besot From Kuching

Me againMe and MummyMy Aunts and my mummy and ma

Me and my Ma

5 days remaining

OMG five days remaining b4 my big day....tik tok tik tok. I got my Baju "Nikah" aleady its quite nice and simple, combination of pink and white. Time is running our for me and i still belum lagi buat apa2 inside my room . And also I don't know where to put my lil Rachael , cian rachael hehehe.

SO blank right now I'll update again tomorrow..

Chow chin chow~~

Stuck in my room

Hey guess what u wanna know why ia have the chance to write my blog....hehe cuz I AM STUCK IN MY ROOM..yes i got locked up by my OWN ROOM...my door knob buat masalah and thanks to my mom who triggered my anger whiched ended up like this.

Movies I have watched

Here are the movies i have watched so far ,Michael Jackson's This is it.

I watched it on the premiere , and found out it was amazing, i felt his aura alot and saw how much he worked to make his concert grand. I cried while watching him singing , dancing although he didn't dance that much due to his age and man, he looked so skinny the part i cried the most is when he sang I'll be there , i just can't stop loving you and man in the mirror. His voice are still original like before , i missed him soo much until now, its almost 6 mths since he left the world. I wonder how the kids are doing? the last thing i heard his kids are still under therapy , Blanket cried alot missing daddy , Paris can't stop wearing her dad's tshirt almost everyday and watched his music video and posters all over her room and lastly Prince , a boy is also attached to his daddy so much, he won't let it out but i know inside deep inside his heart he loves his dad and probably he would cry if he is alone. He is a king who will live forever and remember this MJ i love u and will never stop loving u. And for the kids stay together , be strong remember daddy loves u so much he didn't leave u guys on purpose... RIP my love

I Love You Mikael

Ninja Assassin By My Love Jung Ji Hoon Pic below is his perfecto transformation for this movie it took him 3 mths to get his perfect 6 packs and he did it AJA AJA fighting love ! !
My Ji Hoon
About this movie, it was da BOMB ! ! i can't believe my Rain could do that kind of movie, anyway I as a fan is very very proud of him yes I am its better than Speed Racer now its only focused on him my hero. Although the movie is full of killing and blood but he did well, its just i get annoyed with his long hair but still YUMMY haha cant wait for his DVD 9 i wanted to watch it again and again and again.... hehehe WELL DONE RAIN @ JUNG JI HOON Love ya ! !

Fobia 5

I watched this movie when i was in kuching, i watched this with my cuz Bg Jehan , damn i hate ghost stories baik jua ujung2 nya cali and ended up dead hahaha, tautah cerita thailand ani antunya ganjil2, mostly i covered my eyes and yeah biasalah asak2 at my cuz hahaha tewas ja meliat kan cerita atu panggung nya g semacam galap hantap hahaha. cerita bodoh.


2012
A very very very extrodinary movie , eee it gives me goosebumps its about how world is gonna end mcm hari kiamat , mcm2 ada tsunami ada , earthquake ada, volcano explotion ada ee I bet org yg create ani mcm2 diutaknya tapi banar siuk2 gnya sangal jubur lehnya duduk batah2 hehehe tapi bagus bagus i like. I bet if the DVD 9 is out by ow probably hubby love would buy it and meliat balik2 mcm ia meliat ceria the day after tomorrow balik2 smpai dvd pun nda sanggup melayan ia rusak~~ hehehehe :p

My Shinee Ring DIng DOng

Its here ! ! ! !

Guess what my invitation card is here, well siap on november plg tu hehe I was still in Kuching and hubby love sent me these pics through e-mail.. tq love.

Congrates to Norajah and Abg Onn

While i was in Kuching I was suppose to go back to Brunei on the 21st nov but then ketinggalan flight so sempat pegi to my cousin's wedding on 22nd nov @ my homey di Kg Stadium , the pengantin use our house pasal my aunt's house is a flat so drg pakai rumah je lah. So just wanna say congrates guys i'll be joining your club soon hehehe....

Norajah with the tudong and her brother on the rightNorajah's belulut lawakan ia pakai baju jawa heheheAni apatah lagi adi bradi tiga org ani begambar and unite lerMe and my twin,nah actually we are 5 yrs gap but we do look the same heheheSinblings reunite, too bad my eldest sis is not around

Activities during in Kuching

Here are some pics which was taken in Kuching....

My Uncle Abu and Aunt Rose came from Bintulu

Finally I met my lil baby fruit 999 Ariel Afeef Zaqwan , had fun holding him. Aunty Miss u alreadyLil Ariel tidoHere's more

Me and my cuz Nabila

My Aunts , Che Besot and Usu Munah

Mummy and Aunty Mah ( Mom's Half Sister )Not only them hehe even me and my 2nd youngest sister sampat ambil picMummy and Oje~ mummy's closest friend from school till now.. atu baru namanya kawan yo.. smpai ke tua hehehe

Bandaraya Kuching Sarawak malangnya malam haha i very bad taking pics @ night
Actuallynya bnyak plg lagi gambar atu gnya hehe i'm tired waiting uploads thingie lambat nyamo lalah menunggu so ani tah dulu ah hehehehe...

Meet the new family member

Let me introduce to our new family member. Her name is Rachael @ Jezzabelle and arrived on the 31st oct 2009. She is a cute and also an adorable lil one. She bites but bite manja saja hehehe.

Hello~ hehe

Meet My Rachael @ Jezzabelle

Grandma

I went to Kuching last mth for 2 weeks plus due to my grandma was sick and was admitted to the hospital, I got the news from mom. So my mom got worried and so did I. We decided to fly off to Kuching Sarawak.. I decided to join mom because to accompany her and also i really wanted to meet grandma just in case i won't have the chance to see her. It would be sad for me not to see her and to hold her if she's gone.

The sky up high

Using RBAExcited to go homeMom and her smile..hehehe
Left Brunei around noon and arrived at Kuching Sarawak around 4 afternoon. My aunt picked us up and we went straight to my usu's house. Rested for awhile and after listening to stories what had happened to grandma my mom was so mad and pissed off with one her sister which is an adopted one who is responsible of taking care of grandma so we went straight to the hospital.

There she is lying with her eyes closeMom with her tears looking at grandma's conditionMe and grandma , i cried while i kissed her forehead could not believe how much I missed her so much. But i put a smile on my face and think positively that she would be alright amin..Mummy , grandma and me ( we love u nenek )

After meeting grandma we were listening to the doctor about grandma's condition according to my usu boy , she was very very healthy when she stayed with them during the last Hari Raya and she was able to climb up the stairs on her own. Then after that day she stayed at my other aunt's house Tini, thats when the time grandma suffered. She was all alone in her room no one to talk with being controlled , not being well fed , not even changing her diapers , not even giving her a bath and even wore her old old clothes. According to the doctor, her body was dehydrated and was starved , not fed for 5 days and didn't pass motion for 18 days. Could you just imagine 18 freaking days. How could such a human being do to such old woman who called herself her MOTHER????? Not only that before this incident happen grandma fell down in the bathroom and her forehead bled , and guess what she waited the blood to dry off and then she sends her to the hospital.

My mom was sooooo upset with her because she promised my mom that she would take care of grandma but then this happen and she plans to take grandma to my usu's place. I too as a grandchild was pissed of. Mom was waiting for my uncle Abu to come back to Kuching also , he came all the way to Bintulu to see grandma which is also his mother. When he came and saw grandma he too was unhappy with grandma's condition. Grandma had to be fed through the tube instead through her mouth due she can't swallow her food, she would vomit it out. And she had to use urine bag because she can't feel if she wants to pass urine or not. I felt sorry for grandma , but me and her other grandchildren could not interfere the elders problems but due to Tini's children joined their mom and defended her as if she is innocent and also KURANG AJAR , we lost respect and we always thought that durang ani alim tau pasal ugama but no. Kerana dorang kurang ajar arah orang tua that's why all our thoughts about them and respect..are GONE... sorry to say but in realt life they are not our family ties as in darah daging so sedarlah sikit..

Ok enough about that, guess what after weeks in Kuching , drama here and there mummy and her other siblings won the fight against Tini, so finally grandma stayed @ usu's house where people can come to see her, because she loves the crowds not staying alone in the room lying ampai2 cematu saja. Alhamdulillah grandma discharged from the hospital and back at usu's house and she said "MERDEKA" yup that's what she said and she also sang her song which i couldn't catch it hehe something like "kung kung asuk nyalak" something like that hehe how cute. But she is still using her tube for feeding. Foods, she was given Bubur ,and sometimes susu ENSURE for her to drink.

Before going home i told her , please be strong , mudahan cepat sembuh so that u can see your granddaughter sanding here in Kuching , make sure you can walk , eat correctly and remember i love u soo much and lastly forgive me for everything.

lots lots of things to share

Salam , sorry for the long overdue hehe been busy lately with lots of things and things need to be settled well im back and hopefully i can share what i have been through for the past few weeks.